" this is a promise that is going to be made one jashinist to another. I celena the Jashinist swears on the black blood that runs my red vains, will never hit the floor again. this promise is to stop me from haring myself from my sadness. the blood that i drop is always picked up by another Jashininst that trys to give it back.....but i never take it back caz i dont want it.5-22-08 i tired to kill myself, i was found upstairs drowned and almost at my last breaths caz i knew i would miss this jashininst so i tried to make it that we both left....but i lived to see another day that i was happy to see. i ade many sad i made many mad. but this Jashininst stayed with me.so.......ASHLEY BLAIS the blood that runs my redded vains is ur's to control as i promise in my Jashinist blood i will never harm myself or forget ur face.....................................
i love u

as for r symbol
only us the jashinist know what it means because we have dedicated r lives to oneanother its just like holding ur hand but without us being able to feel the wormth of oneanothers hands

ashley i wont ever forget u and i hope when i see u again we both r living